Thursday, September 30, 2010

Can I win the battle of the bulge? I think so.

Once upon a time, before I had children, I used to weigh 130 lbs. It was a good thing at the time. I would often get asked though if I was starving myself or anorexic. I could eat a whole pizza plus some ice cream, and not gain one single pound. It was amazing! I totally loved it. I could wear whatever I wanted, and I looked pretty damn good! Then, came kids.

After my first pregnancy, I lost pretty much all of the weight. I was about 140 lbs. I finally had some curves! No more looking like a stick figure. I liked that a lot. I was able to maintain my weight, and could still eat a lot of whatever I wanted. About 4 years later, I became pregnant again. Now this pregnancy, I gained A LOT. Like 100 lbs too much. I couldn't believe it. Granted, I did have a big baby, but it was just outrageous. How in the world did I manage that? Maybe it was all the ice cream I craved. It took a very long time to lose at least half of what I had gained. I got down to about 170 lbs, and about 9 months later, bam, pregnant again! Now that time, I was careful to watch my weight. I didn't want to literally be as big as a house. I only went up to 215 lbs. Not bad. I was able to lose all of the weight again. I was thinking, now if only I could lose some more.... but then I got a little lazy. I didn't really think about it, as I had way to much going on at the time. About 3 years later (2009) I became pregnant again. Gained about the same weight as the previous time. I lost almost all of it.... and then I started to gain it back. This was a problem.

So, I am going to do something about this problem. I was jogging for a while, but since it started getting all rainy, I very well couldn't go jogging since I had Nico with me. Thank God for the Wii and the Wii Fit! We have had the Wii Fit for a while now, and I do like it. There are many different kind of exercises. They even have fun activities for kids to do, which is a huge plus. Also, we have Netflix on the Wii, and they have little work-out videos. Now that, I really love. So far, I've started on the beginners work-outs, since I'm greatly out of shape. Since last week, I've lost 1.4 lbs. Not too bad at all if I do say so myself.

So I'm dedicated. I'm determined. I know I can do this. I'm not happy with how my body looks. Having kids has changed a lot of how my body looks, and I'm okay with that. My body isn't perfect, but its real. I just want to be in shape again. I've got my old jeans waiting for me, and I will wear them again! I know its going to take some time. This weight loss isn't as much for me as it is for my girls. I want to show that I do take care of myself and that I do matter. I've put myself on the back burner for way to long. Now its my turn to get back to being a better me. I've got lots of time.

My goal is to hopefully have lost at least 5 lbs by the end of October. I know that doesn't seem like a big goal, but its within reach for me. I only have about 4 more lbs to go, and I can do it! I will indeed win the battle of the bulge.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Does my baby ever sleep anymore?

My little NicoAnn has always been an amazing sleeper. Since she was really young, like at around 2 weeks, she started sleeping through the night. No joke. I would even try to wake her up for feedings, and she would just sleep and sleep. I don't know how I got so lucky with that, but I thank God for that everyday.
Now when it comes to napping.... that's an entirely different story. My Nico didn't think much of naps when she was really young unless she was sleeping in Mommy's arms. Which I didn't mind so much really at first. But then, it was getting to the point that I couldn't do anything at all unless I was holding her. She didn't mind being in a baby carrier, but that still didn't help when I had to run to the store or run to Spokane to get my two older girls. I knew with all things, that it would pass. And it did almost as fast as it started. She then became a super sleeping baby. "AAAAAAHHHHH" as angels would sing. It was just that great.
Then something changed. I can't say I know exactly what it is. Its frustrating for me to not know what is going on with my own baby. Around the second week of September, Nico all of a sudden decided she didn't want to take naps anymore. I kept wondering, "What happened to my super sleeping baby?" I didn't change how I put her down for a nap. I then I had very cranky Nico on my hands. I thought maybe its teething, or maybe she's just not tired. I tried all of those, but either it worked or it didn't. Sigh.
This past week has gotten a little better though. I thought that maybe if I put her down for a nap a little later, maybe she will want to go to sleep. It works sometimes, and sometimes it doesn't. I'll lay my little angel down, and either she starts screaming, or else she stays asleep. I think that maybe, just maybe I'm starting to figure it out. She is now 7 months, and I know she is changing. She's becoming a mobile, drooling, grabbing machine. So, maybe she just doesn't want nap time at the same time anymore. I think I can handle that. She's only just telling me that "Mommy, I'm changing, and have different needs!" So I'm listening.
So, yes my Nico does sleep. It's getting better. I'm hoping that maybe, just maybe, there is a light at the end of the napping tunnel.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Me, get behind? Oh yes, it happens to me.

Well, last month, I said that I would blog. I was on a roll there for quite a while, and then..... I just lost my motivation. Why do you ask? I think mostly its because I've been going through a bit of a hard time. Nothing bad has happened, I've just been in a sort of funk. But, I am pulling myself out of it, inch by inch.
So, now I've noticed that I am quite behind on my blogging. I do love blogging. Really. And I know that I am going to stick to it this time. It feels quite therapeutic to be doing this. Its so easy to do, and most of all, I can do this whenever I want. Now that, is a good thing.
I don't know exactly where this blog is going to go yet. Mostly, it will cover all of the mommyhood stuff, plus whatever else I feel like talking about. I may be a quiet person, but once you get me to talking, I'll never shut up. And that's a promise right there.
So, just stay tuned to whatever it is that I'm going to say. It'll start off small, but soon enough, it'll be HUGE. :)